Anxiety and daily life
September 12, 2025
早上起来又焦虑了，昨天傍晚电话打去挪车那地方不能停，搞得紧张，原来偷偷停的地方离住的客栈近，挪车的话不知去哪里好，古城停车统统50一天，最后到了现场，一拐弯一个巷子里有个空位，咬牙赶紧把车塞了进去，还压坏了路边一条破板凳。想起来车还有两个问题，一个是底盘有点声音，颠簸时候会有东西晃动的感觉，第二个是左转向打死会有嘎吱嘎吱的声音，要处理一下，有点烦。第二件事是听护工说父亲走路容易喘气，觉得这个样子发展下去就是慢慢走下坡路，不知是否还要带去医院折腾看看有没有扭转的机会，我也不想去折腾，折腾也不知结果是会变好还是更坏，但不管他心里还是忐忑，焦虑就这样在早上起床时候袅袅升起了。
Thoughts and daily life on the 9/11 anniversary
September 11, 2025
Suddenly, I discovered that today was 911, a tragedy 20 years ago. Many people encountered sudden disasters on this day. Maybe they were worried and anxious about various things the day before, or they were confidently looking forward to the next life. In just a few hours, everything came to an abrupt stop. Fate did not leave them even a scrap. Money, material, expectations, regrets, anger, sadness, and all kinds of thoughts, all collapsed together with the skyscrapers.
Trivia in Dali: Picking up the car, changing brake pads, and a night in the village
September 9, 2025
Yesterday I went to Dali city to pick up a car. The car was parked in Vanke Community for two months. A person I found on Xiaohongshu said that he bought more than 100 parking spaces in Vanke to provide convenience for everyone. It cost 200 a month. I thought it was pretty good and looked reliable. When I left, I said hello to him on WeChat. The guy replied on WeChat: "Welcome to come again next time. I am also from Shanghai." It was a bit interesting. When I asked, it turned out that he bought a house in Dali for vacation. His home was in Baoshan District and he opened a travel agency on Changde Road.
Reading "Alive" (1)
September 6, 2025
It's cloudy today. For Dali, which has no shortage of sunshine, cloudy days are more comfortable.
The meaning of personal website
September 5, 2025
Today I started making my own personal website. It’s an old thing, but you always need a place to put your own things and make it easy to view. I built it with trae.
Father’s medication record
September 4, 2025
Yesterday, I had a phone call with a doctor from the Eighth Hospital and asked about the long-term medication my father needs to take and the side effects. It is one thing to ask about AI. It is also necessary to ask the doctor about the side effects of these drugs.
The tug of war with depression
September 2, 2025
The tug-of-war with depression, getting better and then coming back again.
Dali Travel
August 31, 2025
I arrived in Dali the day before yesterday. I plan to stay there for a month. At the end of the month, I will drive the car that has been parked here for two months back to Wuxi and continue to observe my father's condition to see if further treatment measures are needed.
Filling Notes
August 18, 2025
I had my tooth filled today. To be precise, it was pulp capping and pulp-conserving treatment. I insisted on it. The doctor suggested root canal treatment from the beginning and said many reasons why it was not suitable for pulp-conserving treatment. I didn’t listen. Specifically, I was not scared. My belief is that if the pulp-conserving treatment fails, root canal treatment will be necessary in the worst case (the doctor still threatened that the tooth may not be saved in the end, so I gritted my teeth and continued to insist on pulp-conserving treatment).