August 21, 2024
The depression has not gone away today. I have no interest in anything and no motivation to accomplish anything. What's wrong?
I sat down and looked at myself quietly, and found that every time I get angry, this state will accompany me. The state of depression will also be the same sometimes with just a small anger.
I can't control my emotions and not get angry about anything, which means I can't stop being depressed?
The damage caused by depression is much greater than that of emotional anger, and it lasts longer, affecting normal life. Is this a physical reason or a psychological reason? Are you feeling sick? Or are there some people who especially make themselves suffer from internal conflict, depression and other negative emotions?
How to get out of this quagmire?
Every coming and going is out of your control.
Staying away is always a way to avoid problems.
I just want to be able to live an active life, live well, and be able to focus on doing the things I like.
Whenever this state strikes, I always feel extremely helpless, and no matter how hard I struggle, it’s useless. It reminds me of the kitten I saw in the middle of the road that day. A car rushed over its head and it was knocked down as soon as it stood up. It fell over and over again. I felt so panicked and helpless. I have always regretted that I didn’t stop and take it home to raise. Later, I went back to the scene of the incident to search for it to no avail. I felt uncomfortable for a while.
In this world, I am like a grain of sand among the vast number of sentient beings, extremely small and meaningless, struggling to survive. All my wishes are hard to come by, and many things are hard to come by.
The only independent self-consciousness, the consciousness that can be controlled by oneself, but the actual situation vaguely feels that everything about oneself is controlled.
Where is the happiness, where is the happiness?
The only thing I discovered today is that my depression must appear after I get angry. What should I do next?
I have been watching Yang Jiang's "The Three of Us" for the past two days. It is such a happy family of three. Even after the daughter gets married, the family of three still does not break up. This kind of warm and interesting family relationship is often read in the text. It is very real and simple, without any special modifications. Parents with good and excellent concepts have cultivated an equally excellent daughter. The three relationships of father and daughter, mother and daughter, and husband and wife are jointly managed by three caring people, and the quality of the three people's rich lives is also maintained by each other. Such a beautiful family still cannot escape the cruelty of reality. Her daughter and her husband, Mr. Qian Zhongshu, passed away one after another within two years, leaving her alone to guard the empty home. She simply described it like this: The three of us were separated. She used the word "lost", which was particularly touching. Lost, anything that cannot be found is lost. There are so many things lost in a lifetime that I couldn't help crying.